I'm back.

It's been nearly a year since I've been on LJ.

I'm living in South Korea at the moment. I won't be back on US soil until December 17th. It'll be one year since I saw my parents or wrote one decent word. I'm a little tripped out at myself!

Crazy, that's what. Up and down. Wednesday I had an interview with Tennessee Tech. It went well, though I didn't expect to be interviewed by 6 people at once. It was also a case of me being rather sure that I wasn't right for the position after all, which lead to me being much more relaxed during the interview than I normally would. Strangely enough, they were impressed. Even if they don't hire me, they liked me. That's something. After that I went to see an old friend at university.

I got home, and got the news that the man who gave me my very first toy when I was born (a pink panda that I had until I was 13) had died the night before. It was his 48th birthday. He hung in there until a few minutes after midnight and his birthday was over. He was a crusty, do it all and beat the crap out of anything that stands in his way kind of guy. Former Air Force man, current Army guy. He was something. He had cancer, but didn't tell my dad that the doctors had only given him a few months left to live. He let everyone think he could beat it. I guess it was just his personality. Live and let live, screw the odds. We're sad because it was sudden and he isn't with us anymore, but to tell you the truth, Rosatti would rather have gone out in a blaze of gunfire then quietly into the night. I guess this was as close as he could get.

I then got a call from a school in Taiwan that is interested in hiring me. I'm leery because there isn't a US embassy in Taiwan. I would rather go to Korea, but I'm almost afraid that I'll never have another offer. It would be interesting, but it's not my first choice and I'm not keen on a tropical enviornment. After some thought, I think I will turn them down.

This morning my grandfather's girlfriend of 16 years died. Pancreatic cancer. Anybody see a trend here? I didn't know her well. She was on the German side, not American side, so the last time I saw her was almost 6 years ago. They were old school, with everyone under the age of 25 is a child and children should be seen and not heard. Not too much opportunity to bond there.

People die. That's the way the world goes. Two people in one week is a little disheartening and strange when compared to the good things that happened. My future is more uncertain then ever. We're straddling this fine line in my family where my parents want to support my decision to move overseas but are friggin' scared to death. They are not helping my anxiety any, that's for sure :)

*sigh*

Title: Words
Author: avari20</lj> 
Pairing: Jayne/River
Disclaimer: I don't own anything. J. Whedon does.
Rating: NC-17
Author's Note: This one shot/extended drabble has been sitting on my computer for a while. I decided to let it see the light of day, as it were. Contains semi-explicit (okay, maybe more than semi) sexual content and a pre-existing relationship between Jayne/River. Sincere thanks go out to slytherinswench for being my support and spot beta.

( Words )

 Why me? 

I...have a cavity. In my back molar. What I don't have is insurance or a job. *headdesk* The health department cuts off dental services by age 21, and I'm 23. *headdesk again* So that means busting out a credit card to get this thing taken care of. Maybe I'll volunteer my services as a receptionist to pay the bill. Dr. Hamblin will have to start paying me when that bill is paid off, though. I'm not cheap.

You know, I knew the economy was tough. I KNEW that. But it's kind of like childbirth. You know, but you don't REALLY know until you go through it yourself. I've applied to ten or eleven different places with no luck at all. 

Bah. That's it--I'm marrying Jason Issac for his money. Just as soon as he divorces his lovely wife.

Friday morning, Fourth of July, my mom decided to close the restaurant. People come, but don't spend as much. We were busy and still didn't have enough money to make it to the end of the month. Just chalk it up as one more victim of the recession.

A List (to be taken with a grain of salt, because damnit, I can poke good fun at my obsesion :))

1. It is physically impossible for Korean girls to look ugly when they cry.
2. The guy that drinks the most in the series is the guy that's going to lose (except for 1000 Years of Love. Who knew?)
3. Do not confuse ahjumma (middle-aged woman) with unni (older sister, used to refer to women you look up to or an actually sibling). If you do, there will be hell to pay. Seriously.
4. Koreans ask themselves and each other two things quite often: "Wanna die?" and "Am I going crazy?!"

To be continued... :)

I just got my bridesmaid dresses today. I had to add $100 to my credit card (blegh!) which of course isn't the total amount of what I paid for each dress until now, and that put me off. People who remember the wedding fiasco of last year will understand why I'm leery. However, when I got home to try them on, I was astounded to discover that these dresses actually make me look GOOD. They're beautfiul, even. Like, I could hem the lines to tea length and be proud to wear them to some special occassion kind of good. They flatter my curves (except my arms, but hell, they don't make me look like a whale! I can live!) and just need some tweaking on the bodice, but nothing a dart or two couldn't fix. I'm not even that upset over the fact that I had to order size 18s (I'm 14-16 normally). 

Let's face it people. I look fabulous. I will post pics when bodices are done!